Silence is a Noise 

I wanted to use this post to talk about an issue myself and surly others have faced. This is an issue hits close to my heart because of the great depths it has taken me too, along with the great effort and struggle it has taken to overcome/manage on a consistent basis.

This is the issue of social anxiety and the fear of disappointing others that you love and care about. The fact of the matter is, regardless of of our leadership status or job title, we are all at the mercy of human emotion. I hope that those of you who feel the same way I do/have can relate to the following poem and realize that social anxiety and wanting to please others is a sign that you are someone with a big & loving heart. Do not ever feel that you are not wanted and/or not important. The world needs more people and leaders like you. Just understand that you are not alone in this fight:

Silence is a Noise

I’m silent because I love you

And hate to disappoint 

So sorry it takes a while 

To just get to the point

My logic tells me not to care

And to focus on my day 

But the thought of disappointing you 

Strikes me a certain way

I want to make things up to you and show you my respect

But the thought of disappointing you has me in a fret 

I’m sure you sit and wonder if I’ll reach out today 

But still I sit here thinking, it’s just best to fade away 

Regardless of my actions just know your on my mind 

I’m hoping that forgiveness is something you can find 

So when fail I answer please don’t take it as a mark 

That your words are unimportant and that I left you in the dark

The truth is that I am struggling 

And fighting myself within

Fighting to overcome my flaws

And my many regretful sins

I’m silent because I love you 

Please do not forget 

That you are always in my heart 

And in my tears that are falling wet 

This silence is a loud 

And overwhelming cry 

For you to accept me for who I am 

And not ask about the why 

I’m silent because I love you 

So handle me with poise 

I hope I’m not the only one

Who knows my silence is a noise 

Published by Zachary Paul Hoffman

I am a former professional athlete, tri-lingual, Italian/American duel-citizen and aspiring modern-day leadership development expert.

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